Secret Dream

Did you think I wouldn't return?  That I would post one hopeful-random blog in a comeback attempt and then relapse into a deep blog anxiety?  I thought so, too.  But here I am. 

Have you ever had a secret dream?  I am not talking about dreams to become the next Mary-Kate and Ashley Olsen (I mean hypothetically.  Who would dream that?  Weird.)  or the dream to someday grow your own garden with several greenhouses so you can grow exotic plants and fruits all year round and live off the land so that you never have to go into town to buy produce and face other people so as to satisfy your anti-social tendencies. 

I'm talking dreams that COULD come true, but would be very DIFFICULT or SCARY to turn into reality.  The first dream I had (or hypothetically somebody might have) about Mary Kate and Ashley Olsen, is one of the impossible type.  The garden one, is far too probable and common to be a secret dream. 

My secret dream is....dare I speak the words aloud???

(Oh yeah, I forgot, nobody reads this thing.  It's pretty much safer than my journal.)

I would love to be a comedian. 

It all started on my mission.  President Miller (love that man) commanded/instructed that all the missionaries under his reign become familiar with mormon.org to be able to share it with investigators. We had to be on it for one hour a week. On there is the story of a girl who has (openly) dreamed about becoming a comedian her whole life, and she talks about all the hard work she puts into it and how she develops her material and tries to become funnier all the time.  That's when it first hit me... you can become funny.  It's not something you're born with and that's that.  That was definitely a new idea. 

Well, a seed was planted and it's been festering for quite some time.  It's like that squirmy feeling you get right before you know you're going to do something you don't want to do, like jump off a very high bridge because a cute boy is watching.  (into water, of course, come on.)

So I turned to somebody I knew would understand.

Needless to say my brother was thrilled to discover that his sister was a closet-comedian-wanna-be.  Did he sneer up his nose at me and tell me I would never have the makings of an improvist?  He could have, but no.  That's how you know the measure of a man.  By the way they react to hearing your secret dream.  (remember that when you comment).  Anyway, I'll the keep the cosmos updated on my secret dream and if you happen to be really bored someday and desire to live vicariously through me, feel free to do so.  But please, let me know you've been here.  

Anyway, on to something more PRACTICAL.  

the 30x30 clothing challenge!  I have picked my 30 items, however, I have not had time to photograph them.  So you'll just have to trust me on that one.  Here are days 1 and 2 of the challenge.  

Day 1: black shade shirt, white cardigan, skinny jeans, and dance shoes :)  So cool.   Props to roommate, Becky, for taking the photo.  The second one.  Props to self-timer for taking the first one.

Day 2: blue button up, red cardigan, skinny jeans, and american colored boat shoes!  Preppy suits me, I think. And little Livvy definitely beats the accessories I had the day before.  You rock, Liv.  Thanks for making me look good ;)

Anyway, what's YOUR secret dream?????

Blog-itis and Family History!

okay.  breathe.  I can do this. 

I don't know if it has been scientifically coined yet, but I tell you there is a disease that I will refer to as "blogging anxiety."  It's very real and very serious.  And yes, my friends, I am a victim. 

I'd like to thank my beloved sister, Kimberly, for helping me take the first step toward blogging freedom.  She challenged me to the 30x30 challenge, which requires that you pick 30 items of clothing and mix and match them for 30 days, never repeating a single outfit.

It hit my weak spot.  I love mixing and matching.  And I love downsizing.  30 items isn't that many.  I guess that's what it took for me to be writing this..and the fact that it came from her means a lot. Kim is pretty much my best friend in the world. 

So ... I haven't yet picked out my 30 items, that will be my next post, promise.  (This is one of the reasons I hate blogging...here I am talking to somebody who probably doesn't exist...as if I have a following--HA! :)

However, I did have something on my mind to discuss. 
Family History. 
Yes.
Wonderful,
Amazing,
Addicting,
FAMILY HISTORY!!!!!

I went to the family history library on campus yesterday and the missionary couple stopped what they were doing to help me out.  I can understand why its

so hard for people to get started..it's so hard to know WHERE to start!!!!  I've been "getting started" for almost 7 months now, and I still have a bagillion questions and need lots of help.  But I am getting it, slowly but surely.

They always tell you that the best place to start is with yourself.  Scan your birth certificate, baptismal certificate, wedding certificate, all that stuff.  Write your life history.  So that's what I am going to do, start with myself.  You can then work your way through like a sly detective uncovering mysteries of the past and getting really good at recognizing subtle clues...it's wonderful. 

The couple at the library told me I was lucky to be starting so young because my grandparents are still alive.  There are so many things they wish they would have asked their grandparents about their lives!  And their parents as well.

I was pondering on this, when suddenly, on facebook of all places ;), I ran into my dad's old missionary companion.  He gladly sent me some pictures of my dad when he was on his mission in Ecuador!! 
Exhibit A:

This is my dad in the MTC.  He's the one in the front wearing the vest. 
Stylish.  Way to go dad!



Exhibit B:



Cool dad with Crazy-Eyes


So yeah.  That's family history in action right there ^^^^

Seriously, when you start finding things about your family you didn't know before you feel joy!!  It's The Spirit, but even those who wouldn't call it that can't deny the good feeling they get doing family history!  go to familysearch.org to get started for free!

What are your experiences doing family history?  You can share your fears, successes, questions, or anything!!